israel, pls go to hell

to be hurt and to be loved

it is strange to wrote this topic. i was called by my heart to wrote this since i did not do anything today that can impress myself. so i made a decision to made a landmark for this date. today.

besides myself, i did not have anyone to accompany me most of the time. well, stuff like have a meal together, playing round and messing up with trouble. i am 21 and i did not have that time which is what people call as teenagers. i am far from my family and then i started to involved with a lot of university’s programs. as a result, i gain friend but it is far from the word soul mate, not even a little, not even a bit.

few people regards me with their most sincere heart. when they need me with my experience and specialties, they would call me and left after  they got what they want. it hurts. i am not questioning what i received, but often when u give something, it will be pleasure if people remembers u.

still i eating my lunch with no one besides myself, messing up with trouble and playing around. i get use to that long time ago.n got no offense dear.

but to be loved. it is also strange that i feel the loves around me even i did not see it. i got love from my Allah, n my parents send me their love through phone and bank account (it is a way right?) me too, got loves from my siblings and friends – even it is very few (angel, aizatfikry, daniel..and sorry for not mentioning ur name, yeah, i mean u). it is love though.

i think most of us forgot that love is something that is never enough even u r flooded by love. that is why people always complaining that they are the one who always being left behind. im trying to told myself about that.

but my heart keep rejecting it. oh, i am a human being.

tomorrow

assalam

tomorrow’s going to be an election in my campus, and also will be my last day as a caretaker and always be a former leader in my university. its been a lot of experience, the good and the bad. but i bet, the good will not be remain good forever and the bad will not be remain bad forever. i drop tears a lot along the way and i laugh a way more worth than my tears. friendship and teamwork, leaders and followers, decisions and consequences, ups and downs,, yeah, i learn a lot!

it is sad that im going to leave my position and it is good that im  leaving the throne for the better man.  i am saving the next step im going to take in my workplace, and i know its tougher than one’s ever told. before this i’ve done a lot of immature decision, careless statement, silly mistakes and not forgetting not so sincere act. it taught me that no one is perfect, but u can be as perfect as a man can be. i experiment that quote many times, and i hope it did not end here except when im facing my own ending.

and after tomorrow, im going to post a lot!

ihasta luego!

ralat kesilapan

assalamualaikum..

ralat (awkward) sebab satu mistake, hasilnya = dipulaukan dan dipinggirkan. layaknya mungkin diberi peluang. tapi betulkah? takut kesalahan yang satu itu diulangi.

cukup terasa kalau ia di tempat aku. cukup terkilan kerana mungkin jasa seseorang itu akan selenyapnya dilupakan kerana satu kesalahan yang dia tak sedar dia lakukan. suruh ia dijadikan pengalaman. tapi akan ada kah pengalaman seperti waktu itu datang semula?

cukup sedih. aku rasa sedihnya.

realitinya, toast to the person. yang dipulaukan dan yang memulaukan. yang dipulaukan kerana anda tak perlu bersusah-susah lagi untuk mereka dan yang memulaukan kerana tak perlu risau kesilapan yang sama akan dilakukan semula oleh orang yang sama.

orang yang lain untuk kesalahan yang sama, hanya Allah saja yang tahu.

ralatnya.